careful what you wish for

A year ago, I probably wished to be happier. Or just to not feel as lost in life. Or maybe to feel less stressed and worried. Maybe I wished for a focused mind, or peaceful nights, or a life that made more sense for me. I guess I probably wished you away, somewhere in there. I didn’t mean to, I swear. In fact, I can’t imagine genuine happiness without you being there. I guess I didn’t realize that at that moment, when I wished for something different, that that something different meant I couldn’t keep both you and that future I desired. i’m sorry. I wish I could take it all back, but you see now, that is truly wishful thinking.